I've admired watercolor artwork for as long as I've known what to call it.
It has such an ethereal quality when used loosely.
It's almost romantic, in a way.
Every year I tell myself it's going to be the year I learn how to use watercolor to bring my own dreams to life.
And then life gets in the way and I don't.
But recently, after a little meltdown at the end of summer, I said, "to hell with this!" and just made time happen.
It's an act of self care I tell ya.
I've managed 8 - 10 practice sessions now, I think.
At first, I followed tutorials on YouTube, specifically from Nianiania.
I never stop following tutorials really. They are a great way to get your creative juices stirring when you hit a block.
But after a few of her fantastic tutorials, I decided to try some things of my own, and the thing I liked best was my mushroom skull (above)
I was looking for inspiration and found this really cool skull home decor (?) and I thought the concept would be great for a watercolor painting.I was so happy with the end result, I cut it down to fit in this fabulous frame I found thrift shopping a few years ago but could never find just the right artwork for.
After having weight loss surgery almost 4 years ago, I've had regain.
50ish lbs of regain.
I've re-gained half of what I lost after the surgery.
Perhaps it's partly due to the emotional stress I've been under.
The first year or so after the surgery, I had so much unfamiliar energy, I could not sit still and I let my little hobby business basically dissolve into nothing.
After a couple years now of trying to build it back up, the momentum is gone.
So, having potentially failed at weight loss surgery, and having let my little business turn to dust, I have been feeling the lowest I have felt in a very long time.
I have been down and out. Flat on my ass.
TKOed.
But not quite.
Fortunately, I am no quitter.
I am an ALMOST quitter.
But I seldom stay down for long.
As far as the regain, I'm considering making a whole post about that, but to keep it short, I've gone back to the basics with a "pouch reset".
I won't go into my thoughts about "pouch resets" on this post, but I think it has helped me get back on track and I'm modestly hopeful that I will get the regain off.
And as you may already know, I closed and re-opened my Etsy shop.
Did I tell you that Etsy literally takes 1/3 of every individual digi sale I make?
Were it not a source of passive income (after I create and upload the images) it would be a complete loss. And if I don't sell at least 10 of each image I upload, it is still a loss.
Which is why I like Patreon. The fees are not as awful, but unfortunately, a lot of people are scared off by subscriptions.
Which I get because it drives me crazy that literally everything is a subscription now.
So, although it looks very dismal right now, I am still pressing forward with trying to rebuild the hobby business and getting my head together so I can get my weight (and health) back on track.
But even if I am not capable of earning with my art ever again, and even if I never lose another lb - or even if I gain another 50 lbs!!! - I still have value. I am still worthy of love and happiness and my place in this world.
And I needed that reminder very much today.
So I've framed my purple eyed girl to hang here in the office/studio/dining room (lol) as a reminder.
I am not a lesser person if I am not capable of earning a proper living.
I am not a lesser person if I am overweight.
I am worthy as I am, right now, in this moment and in every moment.
And in case you need a reminder -
You are worthy too
Playing in Watercolors: Worthy As I Am
Saturday, November 20, 2021
I've admired watercolor artwork for as long as I've known what to call it.
It has such an ethereal quality when used loosely.
It's almost romantic, in a way.
Every year I tell myself it's going to be the year I learn how to use watercolor to bring my own dreams to life.
And then life gets in the way and I don't.
But recently, after a little meltdown at the end of summer, I said, "to hell with this!" and just made time happen.
It's an act of self care I tell ya.
I've managed 8 - 10 practice sessions now, I think.
At first, I followed tutorials on YouTube, specifically from Nianiania.
I never stop following tutorials really. They are a great way to get your creative juices stirring when you hit a block.
But after a few of her fantastic tutorials, I decided to try some things of my own, and the thing I liked best was my mushroom skull (above)
I was looking for inspiration and found this really cool skull home decor (?) and I thought the concept would be great for a watercolor painting.I was so happy with the end result, I cut it down to fit in this fabulous frame I found thrift shopping a few years ago but could never find just the right artwork for.
After having weight loss surgery almost 4 years ago, I've had regain.
50ish lbs of regain.
I've re-gained half of what I lost after the surgery.
Perhaps it's partly due to the emotional stress I've been under.
The first year or so after the surgery, I had so much unfamiliar energy, I could not sit still and I let my little hobby business basically dissolve into nothing.
After a couple years now of trying to build it back up, the momentum is gone.
So, having potentially failed at weight loss surgery, and having let my little business turn to dust, I have been feeling the lowest I have felt in a very long time.
I have been down and out. Flat on my ass.
TKOed.
But not quite.
Fortunately, I am no quitter.
I am an ALMOST quitter.
But I seldom stay down for long.
As far as the regain, I'm considering making a whole post about that, but to keep it short, I've gone back to the basics with a "pouch reset".
I won't go into my thoughts about "pouch resets" on this post, but I think it has helped me get back on track and I'm modestly hopeful that I will get the regain off.
And as you may already know, I closed and re-opened my Etsy shop.
Did I tell you that Etsy literally takes 1/3 of every individual digi sale I make?
Were it not a source of passive income (after I create and upload the images) it would be a complete loss. And if I don't sell at least 10 of each image I upload, it is still a loss.
Which is why I like Patreon. The fees are not as awful, but unfortunately, a lot of people are scared off by subscriptions.
Which I get because it drives me crazy that literally everything is a subscription now.
So, although it looks very dismal right now, I am still pressing forward with trying to rebuild the hobby business and getting my head together so I can get my weight (and health) back on track.
But even if I am not capable of earning with my art ever again, and even if I never lose another lb - or even if I gain another 50 lbs!!! - I still have value. I am still worthy of love and happiness and my place in this world.
And I needed that reminder very much today.
So I've framed my purple eyed girl to hang here in the office/studio/dining room (lol) as a reminder.
I am not a lesser person if I am not capable of earning a proper living.
I am not a lesser person if I am overweight.
I am worthy as I am, right now, in this moment and in every moment.
And in case you need a reminder -
You are worthy too
My husband has been asking me to make art of him for a while now.
He wants himself as a knight with a big sword or something along those lines.
And maybe, one day, I'll do that for him.
But mostly I'll draw him the way I see him.
Just like I did my last husband =)
And so I did this piece of him and his mean, mean Jenday conure, Max.
This bird hates me. It's the first pet I've ever had that has disliked me, and even worse - he bites me!
But my husband loves him. So I just stay out of the area when Max is getting his flying time in.
My husband is excited to see it colored, so I guess that it's not a knight, is okay after all =)
The Husband and the Bastard Bird
Monday, November 1, 2021
My husband has been asking me to make art of him for a while now.
He wants himself as a knight with a big sword or something along those lines.
And maybe, one day, I'll do that for him.
But mostly I'll draw him the way I see him.
Just like I did my last husband =)
And so I did this piece of him and his mean, mean Jenday conure, Max.
This bird hates me. It's the first pet I've ever had that has disliked me, and even worse - he bites me!
But my husband loves him. So I just stay out of the area when Max is getting his flying time in.
My husband is excited to see it colored, so I guess that it's not a knight, is okay after all =)
During my break from digis, I thought of all the non-commercial projects I wanted to work on. I want to turn my favorite celebrities into the Holy Mother, I want to create some critters from my imagination (along the line of Chris Ryniak except my own and in my style), and I wanted to start creating self-portraits - to come to terms with my body dysmorphia and to experience myself from the outside looking in. My biggest inspiration for that last project is Frida Kahlo. Not only her art but also her words and the way she lived her life.
She is most famous for her self-portraits. Through these paintings she explored her feelings towards herself, her place in the world and her tumultuous relationship with fellow painter Diego Rivera. He was the great love of her life, but also a source of tremendous pain for her.
Self-portraits, inspired by Frida Kahlo
Monday, October 18, 2021
During my break from digis, I thought of all the non-commercial projects I wanted to work on. I want to turn my favorite celebrities into the Holy Mother, I want to create some critters from my imagination (along the line of Chris Ryniak except my own and in my style), and I wanted to start creating self-portraits - to come to terms with my body dysmorphia and to experience myself from the outside looking in. My biggest inspiration for that last project is Frida Kahlo. Not only her art but also her words and the way she lived her life.
She is most famous for her self-portraits. Through these paintings she explored her feelings towards herself, her place in the world and her tumultuous relationship with fellow painter Diego Rivera. He was the great love of her life, but also a source of tremendous pain for her.
Homemade teas are something of a staple in witchcraft.
Especially so for the hearth or kitchen witch.
The act of brewing tea can be used to cast a spell while the tea itself is something of a "magical potion", it can cure ailments and boost health and longevity.
One of my personal favorites, and something I consume regularly, I like to call Immortal Tea.
It's a simple blend of hibiscus leaves and dried elderberries.
Hibiscus and elderberries are both rich in antioxidants.
Antioxidants help cleanse our body of excess free radicals and in the western world, free radicals are in abundance from air pollution, and industrialization.
While we need a healthy balance of antioxidants and free radicals, too many free radicals lead to health issues such as cancer, diabetes and heart disease.
Hibiscus has been shown to help lower high blood pressure and high blood fat.
It was even shown to reduce obesity in animals when give in larger, concentrated doses.
This doesn't necessarily translate into shedding weight for humans, but it might mean a little metabolism boost, and for someone with PCOS, like myself, that's always welcome.
Elderberry has been used as a medicine since medicine was invented. Hippocrates, the father of medicine, called the elder tree his "medicine chest".
Elderberry has been used as a treatment for many health problems: constipation, joint and muscle paint, respiratory issues, headaches, fever, kidney problems, stress, but most importantly it is believed to help with inflammation. Chronic inflammation is linked to cancer, diabetes, heart disease, Alzheimer's and asthma.
When you put these two superfoods together, you get a powerful 'potion' that boosts the immune system, fights off free radicals and inflammation and thus contributes to longevity.
Which is why I call it, Immortal Tea ;)
It also tastes really nice by itself or with a little bit of sweetener of your choosing.
How to Make Your Own
You'll need some dried Hibiscus leaves and some dried Elderberries. I get all of my herbs here:
https://www.etsy.com/shop/SchmerbalsHerbals
I am not affiliated with this shop in any way. I'm just letting you know where I get them. (They've always been reliable for me so I do recommend them if you're in the States.)
Making the tea, in case you're new to this.
I make mine by the cup because I'm the only person in my house that drinks tea.
So I fill my little infuser half with hibiscus and half with elderberries.
I like a half and half ratio.
You will adjust as you try it out to see what flavor you like best. The berry is a little earthier and the hibiscus a little more tart.
Now the thing with herbal tea is you have to let it steep a little longer than black tea to get all the medicinal benefits and flavor.
For this tea you'll want to let it steep 5 - 7 minutes depending on how much flavor you like.
I'm good at 5 minutes but I don't smoke or anything so my palate is pretty sensitive.
This tea isn't bad all by itself. It's definitely consumable, but if you want to spruce it up a little, you can add a sweetener of your preference.
Sources:
Link, Rachael. “8 Benefits of Hibiscus Tea.” Healthline, Healthline Media, 25 Nov. 2017, www.healthline.com/nutrition/hibiscus-tea-benefits
“What You Need to Know about Drinking Elderberry Tea.” Open Door Tea CT, 6 Mar. 2020, opendoortea.com/blogs/tea-knowledge/what-you-need-to-know-about-drinking-elderberry-tea.
Pathak, Neha. “Elderberry: Health Benefits, Risks, Uses, Effectiveness.” WebMD, WebMD, 21 Sept. 2020, https://www.webmd.com/diet/elderberry-health-benefits#1.
Photo Credit: https://www.pexels.com/photo/tea-with-hibiscus-leaves-6507025/
Hibiscus & Elderberry - Immortal Tea
Monday, September 27, 2021
Homemade teas are something of a staple in witchcraft.
Especially so for the hearth or kitchen witch.
The act of brewing tea can be used to cast a spell while the tea itself is something of a "magical potion", it can cure ailments and boost health and longevity.
One of my personal favorites, and something I consume regularly, I like to call Immortal Tea.
It's a simple blend of hibiscus leaves and dried elderberries.
Hibiscus and elderberries are both rich in antioxidants.
Antioxidants help cleanse our body of excess free radicals and in the western world, free radicals are in abundance from air pollution, and industrialization.
While we need a healthy balance of antioxidants and free radicals, too many free radicals lead to health issues such as cancer, diabetes and heart disease.
Hibiscus has been shown to help lower high blood pressure and high blood fat.
It was even shown to reduce obesity in animals when give in larger, concentrated doses.
This doesn't necessarily translate into shedding weight for humans, but it might mean a little metabolism boost, and for someone with PCOS, like myself, that's always welcome.
Elderberry has been used as a medicine since medicine was invented. Hippocrates, the father of medicine, called the elder tree his "medicine chest".
Elderberry has been used as a treatment for many health problems: constipation, joint and muscle paint, respiratory issues, headaches, fever, kidney problems, stress, but most importantly it is believed to help with inflammation. Chronic inflammation is linked to cancer, diabetes, heart disease, Alzheimer's and asthma.
When you put these two superfoods together, you get a powerful 'potion' that boosts the immune system, fights off free radicals and inflammation and thus contributes to longevity.
Which is why I call it, Immortal Tea ;)
It also tastes really nice by itself or with a little bit of sweetener of your choosing.
How to Make Your Own
You'll need some dried Hibiscus leaves and some dried Elderberries. I get all of my herbs here:
https://www.etsy.com/shop/SchmerbalsHerbals
I am not affiliated with this shop in any way. I'm just letting you know where I get them. (They've always been reliable for me so I do recommend them if you're in the States.)
Making the tea, in case you're new to this.
I make mine by the cup because I'm the only person in my house that drinks tea.
So I fill my little infuser half with hibiscus and half with elderberries.
I like a half and half ratio.
You will adjust as you try it out to see what flavor you like best. The berry is a little earthier and the hibiscus a little more tart.
Now the thing with herbal tea is you have to let it steep a little longer than black tea to get all the medicinal benefits and flavor.
For this tea you'll want to let it steep 5 - 7 minutes depending on how much flavor you like.
I'm good at 5 minutes but I don't smoke or anything so my palate is pretty sensitive.
This tea isn't bad all by itself. It's definitely consumable, but if you want to spruce it up a little, you can add a sweetener of your preference.
Sources:
Link, Rachael. “8 Benefits of Hibiscus Tea.” Healthline, Healthline Media, 25 Nov. 2017, www.healthline.com/nutrition/hibiscus-tea-benefits
“What You Need to Know about Drinking Elderberry Tea.” Open Door Tea CT, 6 Mar. 2020, opendoortea.com/blogs/tea-knowledge/what-you-need-to-know-about-drinking-elderberry-tea.
Pathak, Neha. “Elderberry: Health Benefits, Risks, Uses, Effectiveness.” WebMD, WebMD, 21 Sept. 2020, https://www.webmd.com/diet/elderberry-health-benefits#1.
Photo Credit: https://www.pexels.com/photo/tea-with-hibiscus-leaves-6507025/
You will watch YouTube videos and see your witchy idols doing haul after haul after haul video. Ask yourself when these folks have time to actually DO the CRAFT when they are always buying stuff or filming what they bought? And then see how many of them are SELLING craft merchandise or hawking for their friends that do. Some of these folks are just shopping addicts, some of these folks are trying to make money. But if any of them tell you that you HAVE to have this or that - they're lying to you.
Look for Witchy vloggers that are about creativity and, not so much about the hauls. A couple of my favorites: Molly Roberts and Kelly-Ann Maddox
Some witches combine their craft with religion. This is why you have Wiccan witches and yes, even Christian witches. Witchcraft and religion are two separate subjects that are often and easily combined (similarly to religion and politics) though they do not necessarily need to be. A lot of stuff we do as part of craftwork is considered 'spiritual' because there is no other category to place it in besides perhaps occult. Religion and spirituality are not one in the same. One can be spiritual and not religious.
- the unacknowledged or inappropriate adoption of the customs, practices, ideas, etc. of one people or society by members of another and typically more dominant people or society."his dreadlocks were widely criticized as another example of cultural appropriation"
The mass consumption of white sage through smudging kits is making it difficult for Native Americans to access white sage for their long-held spiritual practice. It's beyond time for non-Natives to look to other herbs and or methods to cleanse. The more energy we put into our practice, the more powerful it becomes. Growing your own herbs for a smoke cleanse would certainly be more effective than getting a smudge kit shipped across the country from Amazon. But even going to your local grower to purchase a few herbs you are particularly fond of to dry out and burn would be a nice middle ground. (Burning incense is also a viable alternative in my opinion.)
5 Things You Need to Know About Being a Witch
Thursday, July 9, 2020
You will watch YouTube videos and see your witchy idols doing haul after haul after haul video. Ask yourself when these folks have time to actually DO the CRAFT when they are always buying stuff or filming what they bought? And then see how many of them are SELLING craft merchandise or hawking for their friends that do. Some of these folks are just shopping addicts, some of these folks are trying to make money. But if any of them tell you that you HAVE to have this or that - they're lying to you.
Look for Witchy vloggers that are about creativity and, not so much about the hauls. A couple of my favorites: Molly Roberts and Kelly-Ann Maddox
Some witches combine their craft with religion. This is why you have Wiccan witches and yes, even Christian witches. Witchcraft and religion are two separate subjects that are often and easily combined (similarly to religion and politics) though they do not necessarily need to be. A lot of stuff we do as part of craftwork is considered 'spiritual' because there is no other category to place it in besides perhaps occult. Religion and spirituality are not one in the same. One can be spiritual and not religious.
- the unacknowledged or inappropriate adoption of the customs, practices, ideas, etc. of one people or society by members of another and typically more dominant people or society."his dreadlocks were widely criticized as another example of cultural appropriation"
The mass consumption of white sage through smudging kits is making it difficult for Native Americans to access white sage for their long-held spiritual practice. It's beyond time for non-Natives to look to other herbs and or methods to cleanse. The more energy we put into our practice, the more powerful it becomes. Growing your own herbs for a smoke cleanse would certainly be more effective than getting a smudge kit shipped across the country from Amazon. But even going to your local grower to purchase a few herbs you are particularly fond of to dry out and burn would be a nice middle ground. (Burning incense is also a viable alternative in my opinion.)